infraction

At the end of a long and seemingly pointless day I think I've learned nothing, but to say that I am trying again tomorrow almost sounds like insanity. To try something over and over again expecting a different result right? Well that sounds something close to desperation or perseverance. I feel as though I try to focus my attention and do better but never actually make any progress? I feel as though I am letting anxiety get to me, but do I have a choice? I sit here and think about how I'm letting my anxiety get to me, and then my anxiety gets to me......hmmm. Maybe some things are better left un-adressed, or unthought. I'm not sure if those two things are even words or that un-adressed needed a hyphen, but its those kinds of things that keep me wondering. What the heck am I doing here? and who do I go see for complaints?

Food for Thought

The Heart is a teenage girl. It wants what it wants and it wont be stopped. It makes us do bad things.

but its the power of the mind that finds truth, and I think that the heart is very misunderstood.

sometimes we think about life and what we do and don't want, but in the end we just want to be true to ourselves or to keep our cognitive dissonance in tune. With common misconceptions of what happiness is we tend to find ourselves striving for things that we dont actually want. The opposite of ourselves. We become obsessed.
an Obsession is not what most people think it is. To be obsessed with something is to become something the opposite of yourself. Not to just give all of your time and attention to it.

Take obsession, and combine it with paranoia and you get something that is deadly to the human psyche.

I'm not sure that this makes any sense unless you are in the situation, but the thought of knowing that you can use your mind to control your heart, is a wonderful thing.

Fallout

Today I finished my Collage of Photos for my Digital Media class. I think somewhere in-between Making up and editing the project I discovered that I do a lot of strange things in my free time....but then I realized that it wasn't even in my free time. It was my life, and not a hobby......

In my collection of photos I had me in the following instances.

A Captain Kirk costume,

Sora from kingdom hearts costume

Joseph from Joseph and the amazing technicolor dream coat.

Playing Soccer

Dancing in Crazy places

and me Playing the piano......

I'm not sure what to make from my personality

i guess that I appeal to all types of nerd-dom

but also have a great understanding of the Arts as well as sports....(not that I utilize them as much as I should)

Maybe this would explain the lack of dates? someone in my College success class mentioned that I don't get any dates....which either means that they think I'm hot! ;) or just stupid.....

I'm so smooth people just slide on by me I guess.

LIFT OFF!

Well, I guess you could say that the reason for this blog is to send my creative energy somewhere when I dont have the attention span to put it into something productive. an outlet of sorts.

Things you might expect from this blog.

a Musical Thought?

A trip to the star trek universe

Or something I thought you should know.

It should be fun....so be excited